Gail Accuses Amma of Peace, Love and Compassion

EXCERPTS FROM TALKS & WRITINGS OF GAIL TREDWELL (1990 – 1999)

 “After spending some time with [Amma], I started realizing how much she is living for the people. She wouldn’t sleep hardly; she wouldn’t eat hardly. And even some nights, after the Devi Bhava was over—at maybe 2:00 or 3:00 [a.m.]—as we were tired to go to bed, we would try to somehow get her to go to bed. Suddenly after a half an hour she’d get up. We’d say, ‘Mother, where are you going? What are you doing? Why don’t you just rest a little?’ And she would go outside, and there would be a devotee. They’d missed their bus. They had to walk from the main highway. They walked one hour to get to the ashram to find everything over and closed. So, Mother, even though the lights were off, she’d known the presence of a devotee outside, and went out, gave them consolation, sat and talked for about 10 minutes. Then only she would come inside. Like that, we have thousands of experiences that show the divinity and all-knowingness of Mother. … From spending my last 10 years with Mother, I’ve seen how much she lives for other people. Even if she herself may be physically tired, she pays no attention and she will still see everybody one by one. If her shoulder pains, she will put [the people] on the other shoulder.”
—Gail Tredwell, May 14, 1990, USA

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“One day even, I went out in the village and I bought an object. It was only about five rupees. And when I came home, Mother wouldn’t use it. And I thought, ‘What’s wrong? It was only five rupees.’ And Mother said, ‘If it was meant to be, that object would have come to me. There was no need for you to take the money which was used for the purpose of dharma to spend on me.’”
—Gail Tredwell, May 14, 1990, USA

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“You can see in the ashram, Mother, she won’t sit on a high chair and put her arm up and just give blessings to everybody. She herself will come out in the ashram. She’ll help clean the cowshed. She’ll clean the bathrooms. She will be up on the building, on the construction. Mother wants us to lead a selfless life and that money we can save from [not] using paid labourers, she keeps aside for houses for the poor and for mothers who have no husbands who are trying to raise children.”
—Gail Tredwell, May 14, 1990, USA

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“Mother has made my life full, complete, and I experience full peace in being with her. … So, that’s what Mother’s main purpose in her life is: to just be with us, to purify us, to lead us to a wholesome holy life, to be able to love each other, to be selfless, to make use of our lives and to have a wholesome aim. Then we ourselves can be peaceful. If we ourselves are having love and peace in ourselves, we can give so much love and peace to others. And, therefore, the world can become a happy place.”
—Gail Tredwell, May 14, 1990, USA

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“[Amma] embraced me and began to stroke my back. In the warmth of that embrace, my fears dissolved into an ocean of tenderness, and my heart overflowed with joy. It was as if my entire being was being hugged by God.”
—Gail Tredwell, “Momentous Meeting,” July 1992 issue of Matruvani

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“A moment later, after I sat down, Amma looked over and gave me a beautiful, sweet smile. Suddenly I burst into tears. The whole night had moved me so much. Never before had I experienced God’s love so clearly or so intimately. Just being in Amma’s presence, without meditating at all, my mind had been elevated into a realm of pure devotion which I had never before entered; such was the transforming power emanating from Her. … With great tenderness and love, Amma placed my head in her Lap, and began to tenderly stroke my back with Her hand. Oh, Amma, Mother Divine… The profound magic of such a moment is surely beyond the realm of words. Her Lap… can only be called heavenly. All my fears disappeared. The clamouring thoughts completely dissolved, and peace, only peace was felt. … The devotees, myself included, were all swimming in bliss. It was my first taste of ecstasy.”
—Gail Tredwell, “Devi’s Compassion,” September 1992 issue of Matruvani

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“[Amma’s] every movement was an expression of compassionate service and supreme self-sacrifice. When I began to feel tired, I would remember how Amma sits in Bhava Darshan often for 10 hours straight, never pausing even to get up and attend to Her bodily needs, continuously giving solace and comfort to thousands of distressed souls. I would remember how I had wept seeing Amma going for several days straight without even a little rest, not even taking time to eat while looking after the needs of others. She was always so eager to ease the pain of others, even though She Herself might have been suffering from some illness or another. Before Her supreme sacrifice, my own small exertions appeared to be nothing at all.”
—Gail Tredwell, “The Testing Continues,” February 1993 issue of Matruvani

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“Amma is the embodiment of divine love and compassion. Each and every moment of Her life is spent trying to teach these qualities to Her children.”

—Gail Tredwell, “A Lesson in Compassion,” September 1993 issue of Matruvani

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“Amma would shower me with affection, and all the anguish of my heart would be washed away in the river of Her compassion.”
Gail Tredwell, “Blessing in Disguise,” April 1994 issue of Matruvani

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“One of the greatest things about Mother is that she doesn’t teach through any book knowledge that she may have acquired, nor by mere speech. It is through her actions that we can learn from her. Each and every action from her is a lesson in love, sacrifice, patience, humility and pure selflessness. Just observing Mother for five minutes alone you can learn so much.”
—Gail Tredwell, July 15, 1994, Endicott College, Beverly, Massachusetts, USA

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“One year, it was the time for Mother’s birthday celebration. And after the morning function, she came back into her room and she didn’t want to eat that day. So, I asked Mother, what was wrong? And then she started telling that she didn’t want her birthday to be celebrated because there is so much suffering going on in the world outside. But it was only due to the insistence of the devotees and for their happiness that she even allows such events to take place. She was then telling, even to come and see her, people have to borrow money—even they borrow clothes. People who don’t even have enough money to buy the daily needs for food, they somehow manage to scrape money and come and see her. And just thinking of all the sufferings and cruelty that is going on in the outside world, Mother sometimes finds it just too unbearable. Saying this, she closed her eyes and tears started to stream down her cheeks, and she went into samadhi. It is this type of compassion that has led Mother to take over orphanages, build hospices and hospitals. Mother has just seen too many people—poor people—suffering from not enough money to even buy painkiller drugs for cancer. People who have severe heart trouble end up dying because they don’t have the money to get the necessary operations. And so many children who are destitute without the care of parents and the right means for an education. It was not as if Mother had planned to do all these service projects. It just rose spontaneously from her heart and the compassion which is there.”
—Gail Tredwell, July 15, 1994, Endicott College, Beverly, Massachusetts, USA

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“Mother also could be compared to a river. A river doesn’t mind who bathes in it—whether they are young or old, ill or healthy, poor or the wealthy. The river is unaffected and it gives its water to each and every one. Whether you want to drink from it or do your laundry in it, the river doesn’t mind. In the same way, Mother’s love and compassion is given out equally to all, whoever you may be, wherever you may come from. Whatever you may have done, Mother doesn’t mind. Her love is equal to all.”
—Gail Tredwell, July 15, 1994, Endicott College, Beverly, Massachusetts, USA

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“[Amma] is supreme consciousness itself; she is divine love.”
—Gail Tredwell, February 1995, Mumbai

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“We are all very familiar of the life of Jesus, and his sacrifice. After having lived with Mother for the past 15 years, I truly feel she is the combination of these three great souls. ’Cause her whole life is full of sacrifice. Her touch is healing. Her wisdom is infinite. Her love, divine. She is the embodiment of compassion.”
—Gail Tredwell, November 1994, Australia

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“Another day an incident happened. It was rather insignificant, you could say, but it left a very deep impression on my mind. Mother was giving darshan, and it was a very busy and hot day. And in India it is a tradition when men go to temples, they remove their shirt and tie it around their waste. Well, one man came up to Mother and laid himself in her lap. When I looked, he was very hefty. He had a big hairy back, and he was sweating so much. Even his bald head was covered in sweat. Suddenly, the thought came in my mind: “Thank God, this fellow is not in my lap!” Just as I was thinking that, Amma placed her arm on his back, right in all that sweat. And it really struck me right in my heart: This is the difference between Amma and us. Amma has not even the slightest drop of aversion towards anything. Each and every one of us—whatever we look like, wherever we come from—is the most darling child for Amma.”
—Gail Tredwell, July 14, 1995, Rhode Island, USA

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“The best thing for the heart is the spiritual uplifting presence of a divine being like Mother. The scriptures say that the qualities of God are love, compassion, patience and humility. Each one of these qualities we can clearly see in Amma.”
—Gail Tredwell, July 14, 1995, Rhode Island, USA

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 “Why is it that all of us feel so attracted to Mother? It is because She emanates that love which we are all seeking—that pure, wholesome, genuine, straight-from-the-source love. She showers this love equally on all of Her children. She makes no distinctions about colour, creed, status, etc. Everyone is equally dear to Her. Only someone like Mother, who is one with the Self, can guide us on the path back to our True Being. This is why Mother is our most precious asset. Mother’s every action is an example for us. Her every thought is for the benefit and uplift of the world.”
—Gail Tredwell, “The Guru’s Ways Are Unpredictable,” December 1996 issue of Matruvani

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“Not even once in the 18 years that I have been with her has she taken the day off in the name of not being well. It does not mean that she has never been sick. It simply means that Mother is able to lift her mind beyond the physical body. It is only an instrument for her to shower grace and compassion upon the whole of mankind.”
—Gail Tredwell, June 1997, San Ramon, California, USA

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“Mother is one of the greatest ‘heart doctors’ ever. She goes straight to the root cause of the problem. She knows exactly where all blocks in our heart are—the blocks of anger, jealousy, greed and hatred. She removes these blocks and allows love to flow.”
—Gail Tredwell, March 3, 1998, Mumbai

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 “It is very easy for anybody to sit on a stage and give a class or give instructions or talk. But to find a purer living example of patience, compassion, humility and wisdom is very rare. And all of these qualities we can find very clearly in Amma.”
—Gail Tredwell, March 3, 1998, Mumbai

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“And just by being in her physical presence we can see, directly, with our own eyes, how much love and grace she is shedding upon each and every person. We can also become uplifted spiritually by her mere presence.”
—Gail Tredwell, July 12, 1998, Rhode Island, USA

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“Amma lives in the state of Vedanta, where everything is Pure, Divine Essence and God’s Love. Yet at the same time, She knows that, for the ordinary man, his suffering is very real. … The greatness of Amma is that even though She dwells on a level of oneness with God, She understands the extent of man’s sufferings, taking every possible measure to alleviate his pain.”
—Gail Tredwell, “Her Life Is Her Teaching,” October 1998 issue of Matruvani

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“I think [Amma] will be remembered as one of the most loving, compassionate, self-giving, self-sacrificing saints ever to come on earth, and one who has never ever taken a breath of air for herself.”
—Gail Tredwell, “River of Love,” 1998

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“This time Krishna has come to the earth to abolish evil and uplift dharma in the form of a woman—in the form of Amma. In her we can see all the divine qualities we usually associate with God. That is: love, humility, patience, sacrifice and wisdom.”
—Gail Tredwell, Rhode Island, USA, July 12, 1998

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“It is rare in the world to find all of the divine qualities in a human being. In fact, if one has all of these qualities, then he is not a human being; he is in fact, God Himself. We can clearly see all of these qualities in Amma. Her love is equal to all. Her patience is like Everest, firm and immovable. Her sacrifice has no bounds. Her compassion is endless and reaches out to all. … Each and every person who goes to Amma, even if they be the 7,000th person in the darshan queue, will receive the same loving attention.  … Truly we can see that whoever comes to Amma, whether they are rich or poor, young or old, regardless of their religion or status, Her Love flows equally to everyone.”
—Gail Tredwell, “Her Life Is Her Teaching,” October 1998 issue of Matruvani

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“In order for ourselves to be able to lead these ideals though, it is necessary for us to have a living master who can demonstrate them through their lives. This is the greatness of Amma. For each and every movement of hers is a lesson for us—a lesson in patience, humility, sacrifice, strength and compassion. From my living closely with Amma for the last 19 years I have had many an opportunity to witness her Godly qualities.”
—Gail Tredwell, San Ramon, California, USA, November 14, 1998

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“[Amma] only sees the good side of us all. Otherwise would it be possible for her to give darshan for hours and hours together as she does, accepting all as they come to her? It is not that she is unaware of our faults. She is very well aware of all the wrong that we have done and of all the defects in our characters, but she does not judge us for that. Through her compassion, she showers her grace upon us incessantly, loving us just as we are. If you could say, though, that Amma has any desire, it is that all of her children become pure, free from jealousy, greed and hatred. It is very easy to love those who are kind and loving to us, but what Amma wants, however, is for us to aspire to love even those who are cruel and dislike us. We should constantly try to feel her love within ourselves, flowing out to whoever comes before us, whether it be an animal, plant, friend or foe. When this expansion of heart takes place, we then experience God’s love in the form of peace and bliss within ourselves. This expansion of heart is the only thing that Amma expects from her children.”
—Gail Tredwell, San Ramon, California, USA, November 14, 1998

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 “Amma does not discriminate between selfless service and spirituality nor between man and God, for they are one and the same to her. … The greatness of Amma is that, even though she dwells on the level of oneness with God where everything is divine love and perfection, she understands the extent of man’s suffering and takes every possible measure to alleviate his pain. The goal of Mother’s life on earth is to raise everybody to the understanding that they themselves are God. Yet, at the same time, Amma knows that this understanding only comes after many births of hard penance and self-discipline. That is why Amma’s compassion and love are also expressed at the level for providing basic human needs—such as supplying free food for the poor during famines, for providing shelter by building homes, supplying clothing and financial aid for widows and poor families.”

—Gail Tredwell, San Ramon, California, USA, November 14, 1998

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“If Amma blesses us with the slightest fraction of even one good quality of hers, then that itself would be enough to make our lives blessed.” —Gail Tredwell, San Ramon, California, USA, November 14, 1998

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“One thing is very clear: Amma’s whole life, every second, in fact, is dedicated solely to the service and upliftment of mankind. I can also say from the bottom of my heart, that She does not even take one breath of air for Her own sake.” —Gail Tredwell, “Her Life Is Her Teaching,” October 1998 issue of Matruvani

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“Let us all, through Amma’s grace, make a more conscious effort to live as she says, in the present. And make our lives and that of all the people around us a more happy and peaceful one. May she constantly shower us with her blessings.”
Gail Tredwell, October 15, 1999, Helsinki, Finland

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“Another vital and, in fact, the most important link in leading a wholesome life is the master. This is the greatness in the role of Amma, for she is the beauty and inspiration in our meditation, the focus of our awareness in life and the flavour of our mantra japa, without which our spiritual life would become dry and tasteless.”
Gail Tredwell, October 30, 1999, London, England



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6 replies

  1. Excellent compilation! In the light of Gail’s past admissions and revelations of AMMA over several years just until she exited from the Ashram and every single one of them shedding light on AMMA’s humanity, humility and love, love and more love for her children, I’d say Gail’s recent book is nothing but a hallucination of a mind deranged out of guilt and anger at oneself over one’s own inadequacies and cruelties done at others and wrong doings of the self in multiple ways desperately seeking a venue to point the blame at.That’s all there is to it. Nothing more.

  2. Good evidence to reflect. Is it because Amma placed Gail so close to her and gave her so much love that she praises Amma so much ? When her ego is satisfied ? And when, she should have her spiritual goals set and it was time for her to surrender, then she couldnt do it ? Realising she had some other expectations in life and not able to face her own mind, she left the ashram. Well, till here it was ok as many people leave but writing rubbish about Amma is not acceptable at all. She should realise this.

  3. And the worst are the sex aquisations of all mentioned. Sometimes mental imbalances rise up, with many unresolved desires from this life & past lives karma….Amma watches over all Her children and all should forgive & pray for this hurting inner child !
    By an independent Sannyasini who spent a short period of time in Amritapuri .. Received much love from a # of the bramacharini’s & Amritaprana Swamini…2007-08: 6 months stay! And received intense spiritual progress from Amma, to propel this one on for more meditation! My humble Pranams at Amma’ s feet and to all there. Praying for your strength & perseverance in your spiritual endeavours.
    In Amma’s divine love,
    Om Namah Sivaya !

    • Yes..she spent so much quality time with amma! All of us wish n wait for even a look from her. Just this makes us feel so good n blessed. How can anybody ignore so many divine qualities which r so easily seen in amma? So much hard work she does everyday for everybody n is continously doing even though her body is getting older ! More than 40 years she is giving darshan! Can these people even imagine in their lifetime who real amma is ? Do they have even an iota of the power that amma has n uses for d welfare of the world ? And accusing such a saint for those things which only a cheap mentality can imagine. No words to say more….i dont want to go to that level.

  4. AMMA is always in concern of awakening her children to love and compassion-when I was with my son(5 years old at that time) in Amritapuri, Amma came and asked me-Where is Your son?-It woke me up to look and found him climbing a tree-I was not attentive enough-but Amma and for that teaching Iam very thankfull- but one has to learn from that love and compassion without ego-centred thoughts and feelings.

  5. When will it be just you and me.. Oh when will it bee..the bhajan which Gail (Gayathri) had sung with pure devotion.. I still humm it.. And now she has come up with the slimiest and foulest accusations capable only by the slimiest of minds. Let time the eternal healer heal and the eternal judge decide..

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